To my true self,

I am sorry I abandoned you to become a version of myself more easily digestible to people I wanted to like me. I am sorry I got lost in the tangle of trying to understand what the world wanted from me, rather than asking you what you need. I got so far away from you; my breaking point didn’t come until I felt identity paralysis. You gave me signs all along, but red flags feel like butterflies when that’s what you hope is there.

Now that I am on the other side and I am closer to you than I’ve ever been. I just want to say, I plan to spend the rest of my life

Becoming

One with you.